What a terrible long week it's been. Last week, that is, not this week....so far. I turned 40 last week on Wednesday. I wasn't disturbed by the age, but for unrelated various reasons I had an absolutely awful terrible bad day that day. Thankfully my family had a get together and my mother cheered me up with the most awesome cake ever....Robert Redford cake ( http://www.justapinch.com/recipes/dessert/cake/robert-redford-cake.html ) and who can manage not to be cheerful between that and the ice cream? I got many awesome gifts from my brother and his girlfriend and my mother and father, and just getting out of the house helped my overall mood. So that ended up being a nice day....I just wept the first half of it.
The next night at nearly 11pm my cat of nearly 17 years turned up with a broken leg. After an hour of desperate calls it was determined that other than an emergency animal hospital across the border in Canada, there were zero options to get him any immediate help. I sequestered him in the bathroom and had to wait until morning to take him to his regular vet and hope for the best. I did know better, mind you, but there is always hope....that bitch.
In the morning, July 19th, he crossed the rainbow bridge at Java's Veterinary Center. The break was up in his shoulder and after he was gone the vet showed us just how extensive it was....which he told us the minute he looked at Lucky. Dr. Perez is an amazing vet. I got a sympathy card from them today. :( So it's been hard. I lost Lucky's twin brother a year and a half ago when he started to lose a lot of weight and behave differently, more clingy and strange. Now they're both gone. These were the first pets that I ever owned as an adult and they've lived with me nearly everywhere that I've ever lived since leaving home. Lucky was a quiet kitty and his lack of presence isn't as noticeable as when we lost his brother, Stinky, but the hole is there all the same.
I'm still reeling from my weight gain....I'm at 210lbs....that's a 35 pound weight gain in about three months. Thankfully it's garage sale season so I've been able to clothe myself! But things seem to have planed out and my blood glucose seems to be getting closer and closer to the mark, which is my primary focus at the moment. Not that I'm binge eating or anything, but my first goal right now is the have controlled blood glucose readings. Once I've mastered that I'll worry about the weight.
An online friend of nearly a dozen years died recently, as well. While her loss isn't something that will impact my regular life, I will miss seeing her online and just knowing that she's gone is a loss. She was just a good person, with a good heart.
Add in that the HEAT last week! OMFG the hideous horrible heat wave! It was that one week that we usually get each summer where the days are in the 80's or even the 90's, the humidity is right up there matching the temperatures so it feels about 10-15 degrees hotter than it already is, and at night it doesn't even drop below the 70's so nothing really cools off, until a few days in you'd like to crawl into a freezer and take a nap! The air conditioners can't even do more than make a vague attempt to draw some of the moisture out of the air, making it so that instead of actually puking you feel more like crying and being mean all the time. That broke over the weekend, thank you!!
I was supposed to hear whether or not I got a job I'd interviewed for by the 17th, but heard nothing. I'm guessing that things just got too piled up and the gentleman who was doing the interviews and hiring process probably didn't have time to do everything before his vacation. I've been in those shoes myself and it's hard....it's hard enough just getting things ready so they don't fall apart while you're gone! So I sent a follow up email today expressing that and hopefully I do hear back.....even more hopefully that I get the job, still, and that the reason I've heard nothing is that somebody else did and they didn't have time to contact all us rejects. ;)
So there were other things last week that contributed to the overall enjoyment of the misery....but that's most of it.
Meanwhile....This week is going much better. The weather is much nicer, I'm trying to catch up on my sleep, I've been able to pay off some bills and catch a few others up, and the house is tidy and clean. (Odd how that helps your mood, eh?) Also venting to various friends helps. I know I"m not alone and there are other people who aren't having the time of their lives, either. So onward and upward!
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