Ah, and a quiet morning it is, too. It's overcast, sprinkling a tiny bit, and mid-60's out. We've recently bought 150' of rabbit fencing and fenced in the back yard all the way back to the woods, hung a screen from the French Doors that lead out to the back deck, and now the dogs and cats can go in and out as they please when I leave the door open for them. And OMG do they love it!!! I hadn't anticipated the cats going out, but once I realized that they were going to I decided to let them. The two girls shouldn't have any problems, and Lucky is 15 years old....he's earned some freedom. Milly has been barking at the neighbor's dog a lot, which has caused him to complain about her barking, but we're working on it. He suggested a shock collar, but she responds really well to a wrapping paper tube so I don't think I need to electrocute her.
Crystal stopped by last evening, though I was running errands, and Notarized the proxy for Colin's field trip to Washington DC. He'll be going in a few weeks. I don't remember why I didn't go....it was probably too much money. I'm glad to be able to send him -- and he'll go to Boston next year. I want him to see as much as he can, as young as he can. I want him to see the world as an exciting adventure that he CAN be a part of.
Jo is on her way over to drop Sammy off to me for the afternoon. She's got a lunch date she's headed for -- a picnic. :) I hope that the rain holds off for her!
I've been IMing and Texting with an old friend from high school, Kim. We had some vague falling out right at graduation and never saw each other again. She married young and moved out of the area and is a bit of an introvert, so it's no wonder, really. Sounds like she's done really well.....still with the same husband, some good boys, one a Marine....it's nice to catch up. It's nice to put that old mystery to rest and move on from it.
My current friendship mission is to track down Jen and actually see her! Hopefully, Crystal and I can get a date out of her to do some kind of get together. Jen is supremely busy, which her Type A personality must be relishing in, but we miss her. In the last few years the majority of our opportunities to visit with her have been limited to her family gatherings and parties, which I know I haven't made it to most of them. But as her girls get older, their birthday parties are more about them and having their friends around, not about their mothers friends and so on. And the New Year's Eve parties.....well, there are so many good memories at Proper NYE parties, but I like the comfort of being in my own house and I like that Kyle and I can both drink, not worry about who's driving, and be able to sleep in our own bed before dawn. It's just more relaxing....which as I get older is more what I'm about. So my opportunities to visit with Jen have shrunk. But hopefully we can track her down and nail her to a date to chill for a bit!!
I recently got a poisoned pen letter from my Uncle Chris and Aunt Cathy. They seem to have some ideas about me, and my mother along with them, that I can only shake my head at. And when pressed as to what my problem is by my mother I explained about the high blood sugar and the insulin shots I was about to start. However, she appears to have brushed that off, not recognizing it as an actual problem that could or would affect other things. The aunt and uncle in question are dead to me, now. They are very sick people with terrible addiction problems and terrible life problems brought about by their addictions and thieving behaviors. I'm not entirely sure why I became their current focus for drama/trolling, but I don't plan to pay any real attention to it. I can't eliminate it from my thoughts, as I'd like, but I can eliminate them from my life and prevent further drama and negativity. As for my mother, I don't even have the energy to answer all her questions. She seems to want to dissect my life and has made several negative assumptions about me based on no information and misinformation. Plus, we all know what they say about ASSumptions. So as I don't feel any pressing desire or need to psychoanalyze myself for anybody else, I simply won't. I love my mother, I respect her, and I often seek her opinions and the benefit of her experience, but in this situation she seems to have been influenced by her siblings and their very skewed outlooks. I'm sure she'll come to the same conclusions upon further thought. She's had a very difficult year, so much more so than anything I've had to go through, losing her sister, ongoing health issues, and various personal issues as we all have. I don't presume to know what's in her head, but I know she'll work it through because I know how smart she is.
The insulin is going really well, btw. I'm still taking my oral medications for the time being and have added a Lantus injection by pen each night before bed. Right now I'm on 17 units and gradually increasing. It's brought my morning numbers gradually down and headed in the right diretion, and has helped with the rest of my numbers. Everything is still too high, but the fluctuations are less drastic and things are getting better. I will see my doctor again in a few weeks, by which time I should have my morning number where we want it, and then I'm going to switch off all the pills and go to fast acting insulin for meals. I feel SO much better already both for finally dealing with this problem and for all the physical changes that come with getting healthier. High blood glucose leads to all sorts of problems, from depression and mood swings, to constant yeast infections, lethargy, mental confusion and fatigue, and a whole host of physical problems. There are so many more symptoms than most people know about when it comes to diabetes.....things like dry skin, brittle hair, etc. There are also many ill side effects from the pills. Januvia 100mg, glipizide 5mg, metformin 2000mg.....these are battering my liver and who knows what else they're doing....and they're not effective. I'm looking forward to getting off all of them. I also expect to come off the prozac soon, too, as having my blood sugar under control is most likely going to fix any persistent problems in that area.
So that's my most recent update. Still watching the (non-existent) job market, still learning to budget on a two week pay period (I don't think I'll ever get used to that....budgeting is just not part of my skill set), and rolling with the punches!
I hope you're rolling with your punches, too, and I hope that your problems aren't any worse than mine!
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